con⋅trol

 

–verb (used with object)

1.	to exercise restraint or direction over; dominate; command.

2.	to hold in check; curb: to control a horse; to control one's emotions.

3.	to test or verify (a scientific experiment) by a parallel experiment or other standard of comparison.

4.	to eliminate or prevent the flourishing or spread of: to control a forest fire.

5.	Obsolete. to check or regulate (transactions), originally by means of a duplicate register.

–noun

6.	the act or power of controlling; regulation; domination or command: Who's in control here?

7.	the situation of being under the regulation, domination, or command of another: The car is out of control.

8.	check or restraint: Her anger is under control.

9.	a legal or official means of regulation or restraint: to institute wage and price controls.

10.	a standard of comparison in scientific experimentation.

11.	a person who acts as a check; controller.

12.	a device for regulating and guiding a machine, as a motor or airplane.

13.	controls, a coordinated arrangement of such devices.

14.	prevention of the flourishing or spread of something undesirable: rodent control.

Control is what I need to let go off.
I need to stop trying to dictate my own life and give it up to God.
My desperate need to control my life and my surrounding is getting in the way of me expanding my relationship with God.
It is exhausting to try and make everything in your life the way you want it.
Im tired of thinking of all of the things that would make my life perfect.
I want to start realizing that life is life....

the sweet beautiful mess that we are sorrowed with is life.
Life never goes away.
Life changes everyday starting with the different shades of the sun shine.

I want to stop being a prisoner of myself. A slave of control. I just want to live my lovely life.