Emotions are something I do not understand any more.
I never realized what a verbal person I am until I have no one to talk to.
I'm home sick.
I miss my mom.
I miss my little brother.
I miss my dad.
It's hard but God is teaching me so much.
I am growing so much in my faith.
Im learning things about myself that i never new.
Its going to be cold tomorrow.
I just want it to be warm for a little longer.
I wore a sun dress today cause I know that it might be the last time I get to for a while.
Today was a good day.
I am so blessed.
I just miss everything that I am used to and I have never been good at change.
God is pushing me.
He wants me to open myself up to the world.
A world that is so beautiful.
A world that I had my eyes closed to for a long time.

Shh...........

I can see the silents in your eyes.
Silents that is from cries that were never cried.

Silents will hold your hand when you are walking with God.
Silents will pull you astray when the devil holds you in his game for play.

Silents is your friend on a rest full night.
Silents is your foe when you do not have any insight.

Silents can teach you so much.
Silents can make you regress.

Silents can be your best friend.
Silents can be your worst enemy.

I can see the silents in your heart.
Silents that is pulling your soul apart.

Shh.........................................................................

My heart is clouded no longer
With the pain of blind love

I no longer see your face in my tears
You do not control even my smallest fears

My guilt has been erased
Like scar tissue I will never for get you

But I am ready for someone new
Something new

Something right
Something real

Something calm
Something clear

Something abstract
Something adorable

Something brilliant
Something beautiful

Something perfect
Something pure

Someone that i do not even expect
Someone that understands

Someone that loves God more than me


Someone............................................................


Just that perfect someone!