My eyes can not be seen through the white washed window pane.
I stand at that window day after day looking for someone that has been long gone.
Someone who's soul got washed away with the sand on the beach that day.
It has been so long since then and nothing has been the same since.
That's the day that all my childhood dreams floated away.

My eyes can not be seen through the white washed window pane.
I know you are looking and that you will never stop.
You are looking for those eyes that loved you with more longing then anything that you had ever seen before.
I was only seventeen and like every stereotype
I had no clue what love was.

My eyes can not be seen through the white washed window pane.
I stand at that window day after day looking for someone that has been long gone.

Im not really completely sure what i want to say.
Im not really completely sure if i need to say anything.
Im not really completely sure who i am anymore.
Im not really completely sure what i want to do tomorrow.
Im not really completely sure what i want to do next week.
Im not really completely sure i want to be.
Im not really completely sure if i want my hair long.
Im not really completely sure if i want my hair short.
Im not really completely sure if i want to grow up.
Im not really completely sure if i will be doing the same things a year from now.
Im not really completely sure if i will be going down the same path in 6 months.....







And you know what, thats ok!!!







I love life!!!
I love God!!!
I love my friends and family!!!
I love Ice Cream!!!
I love Peanut Butter!!!
I love sitting outside on summer nights!!!
I love feeling so free!!!
I love music!!!
I love coffee!!!
I love being me!!!
I love not knowing whats in store for me!!!
I love not knowing exactly whats going to happen!!!



Love,
ME

as i drove down the cracked pavement
the wild flowers spoke summer to me
as if i had never heard a word before
i could feel that it was going to be the perfect summer
and that there would be no time to waste
we all no how summer starts and ends
but no one really knows how we get there

Bitter/Sweet

I will have to say that is a bitter/sweet goodbye im happy that its summer and that i have successfully made it trough my freshmen year of college. Im happy that next year i will be in an apartment and not in the dorms but im said that this chapter in my life is over i will never be a college freshman again and it feels like it has been that longest/fastest experience that i have ever had in my life it seems like it has been such a long time since i first moved up to lubbock but at the same time it feels like it was yesterday. Lindsey is leaving and i know that it is for the best and im really happy for her that she is going to a&m but its still hard but i know that i can't count on her for everything and i know that she will always be there for me no matter what. I just feel like there are so many things that are done and that there are so many things that are left unfinished.....

Wide Open Spaces

Wide Open Spaces By The Dixie Chicks

Who doesn't know what I'm talking about
Who's never left home, who's never struck out
To find a dream and a life of their own
A place in the clouds, a foundation of stone

Many precede and many will follow
A young girl's dream no longer hollow
It takes the shape of a place out west
But what it holds for her, she hasn't yet guessed

[Chorus:]
She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces
She knows the high stakes

She traveled this road as a child
Wide eyed and grinning, she never tired
But now she won't be coming back with the rest
If these are life's lessons, she'll take this test

[Repeat Chorus]
She knows the high stakes

As her folks drive away, her dad yells, "Check the oil!"
Mom stares out the window and says, "I'm leaving my girl"
She said, "It didn't seem like that long ago"
When she stood there and let her own folks know

[Repeat Chorus]
She knows the highest stakes
She knows the highest stakes
She knows the highest stakes
She knows the highest stakes

I felt like these lyrics were fitting for my life right now with my first year of college ending, I can relate with this song a lot. I left home 9 months ago not knowing what to I came out west, well to west Texas that is, and I have changed a lot in those 9 months for the better. I do not feel like I have made any mistakes I know that i'm not perfect but I feel like everything is a learning experience. Yeah i changed my major but I do not think that coming into college as a theatre major was a mistake. Many people may think just up and changing yoexpect ur major would mean that having that major in the first place was a mistake but not for me it wasn't i learned so much from being in theatre this year and that biggest thing that i learned was that i need to stop letting it be my security blanket cause i dont need one. I have met people this year that i know i will be friends with forever that will be in my wedding and believe me that is saying a lot , if you know what kind of wedding i want. I miss home i feel like the 3 weeks between easter and now have been a life time and i just to be able to sleep in my own bed and wake up in the mournings and lay around the house and watch time and i dont think that is to much to ask for lol. I know that this summer is going to be a time for me to grow and i'm excited to see what that brings. I could never tell anyone why but i'm always happiest in the summer, not like i'm unhappy the rest of the year but summer is always just what i need. :)